should salty liquid involved?

hello~~~

err, should we move to my stories? *suck thing to say -__-*
ikuzo!

well my post this time a bit contrast from my last post
I'm bit sad and......... depressed?

okay the first one is, my best friend, nah, my sister, Sarah, she go for a trip, err, college activity. so I feel  alone. Beside I have a bunch stories to tell her and she just the most perfect companion ever. so.................... please come back home as soon as possible Sarah-nee!!!!! (T__________T)

second, well I said that I'm not cancelling my study to Japan, right? the truth now I cancel it all.. I felt like my future gone far away from myself *sigh* and I still follow my friend's twitter who enroll in same university at Japan. I asked her "you in Beppu already? when you had arrived?" and she just said "sunday" waddafak why seems so cold?! just because I'm not in the same university with her ah? so she just dumped me? I mean I don't care actually, but please, Japan also my dream, just give me information without being so cold..
Now I just thinking my future. I know God set the best for me and I need to create it as wise as I can. Later I believe I can continue my study abroad of even working on Japan.

The good thing is, Yaki-chan is baaaaaaaack!!! for those who didn't know, Yaki-chan is my beloved car :D
I loooooooooooooooove Yaki-chan so much! I can say like Yaki-chan is almost half of my life. We've been together like 5 years. We've been through everything *shed tears* *bricks* lol
Yesterday I went around the city because I miss Yaki-chan so much. I was so happy :D
And today, I had a date (?) lol no! I hang out with my friend, Rin-san. We used to hang out a lot so we called it "date" XDD today we went to one of mall in Surabaya. I actually want to buy moon cake. But after we arrived and found the moon cake exhibition and I just grumbled a 'f*ck' why it's all soooo pricey?! DX I reaaaaaly want moon cake, I do love moon cake a lot! T_T because I didn't bring enough monet I decide to let the moon cake go T_______T but we had fun actually, I bought note that Rin-san also bought on previous day, eating lunch and went to F*n World. Silly, we both played DDR but because we're to old *hell yeah* we lost to that dance game -___- but then we again silly-ly tried our lucks by playing tickets booth machine *not sure the name anyway* we played until our account balance off xD

ah what a long post, I'm still tired anyway. And I guess I should translate my fanfiction now eh? xD
okay see you on next post guys~!

the lucks? XDD

yatta ne!!!

YO!! Ohayou gozaimaaasu~

I've been really happy lately.. hahaw~

The first one is about 'JROCK EVOLUTION'. Well as you know *especially japanese rock music fans* we, Indonesian fans are lucky, cause next month there's an event called 'JROCK EVOLUTION' there will be 3 bands participated in this event. They are Alice Nine, MUCC and UNiTE!!!!!! Gooooosh!!!!! Alice Nine!! ALICE NINE!!!!! kyaaaaaa!!!! *fly* aaaand lucky me I can watch this event. all thanks to God and my friend, Nyan, who struggled to get the tickets. *proud of her* and I really really can't wait!! This event will be held in  Skenoo Hall, Gandaria City, Jakarta. well  guys, for you who will also go to JROCK EVOLUTION, let's having fun together and rock!!!!!

AH! Also, last night, Tora from Alice Nine officially made a twitter account!!!! Yokatta!! Number six, follow him (@)TORA_AliceNine !! Our handsome tiger~ >< and at first Tora's identity being doubt by his fellow members xD but thanks God they knew it was the real Tora hahaha! Hope Nao-san also make a twitter account ><
aaaaaand Tora, you should go twitter a lot! and please mention Saga a lot too (lol) Tora x Saga is my OTP! favorite pairing ever!! *for those who also love Tora x Saga, now I'm working on ff about them, ganbarimasu~~*


ps: I watched Sadako 3D yesterday.................. (T________T)

hahahaha...
that's all for today I guess jaaa ne~

this is our perfect match Tora x Saga 

You Grown, My Beloved Hiroki

Happy birthday to my dearest youngest brother, Hiroki!!!!

Yes! he's 1 year old now. I feel so happy for him. Hiroki is a smart boy, he grown up so pretty well.
Well I'm a bit sad for him because of no father and mother in his first birthday ever. Yes we still have mother, but for some reason I can't tell you what makes me said 'we-have-no-mother'
But whatever it is, Hiroki has me as his nee-chan, and 2 nii-chan. Also he has ojii-san obaa-chan. Not only that, there are a lot of people around that loves him a lot.

And yeah, for the birthday wishes, I of course want he grown up as a smart boy, obedient to his grand parents, sister and brothers, become an useful person to people, everything which is good lah.. hehe

Anyway, yeah I gave him name 'Hiroki' when he came to this world. I told my late father that really want to give my youngest brother a name. So I searched on the internet and found Hiroki. The actual meaning of Hiroki is abundant joy, so his presence will give a lot of joy around of us. And his full name was a combine name from me and my late father. Maybe at that time, God give me a chance to create an unforgettable moment between me and father. I was so happy that moment was when giving a name to my youngest brother. Later when Hiroki grown as a teen, or when he understand enough, I will proudly tell him about his name.

To celebrate Hiro's birthday, we had a birthday event at McD****d (lol) yes, standard I guess.. back then remind me of my birthday party when I was 7 hahaha.. the event went okay, and it was a bit tiring anyway.. because I also take a role as a mother for Hiro..

I guess that's all for today~ once again otanjoubi omedetou, Hiro-chan!
Nee-chan loooooooves you a lot!! (^^)

anyway there are 2 pictures.. the first one was the birthday event, and the second well... narcism okay? XDD it was my style for today~~~~

SID - Nokoriga (Lingering Scent)

Kanji

一応の「またね…。」 背を向けた あなたの髪
春風をまとって 薄れていく 残り香

明日から 痛みは 日を追うごと 増していくでしょう
明日から あなたは 淡々と忘れていくでしょう

桜の舞う 季節まで待って せめて 僕から別れを
忙しいあなたのことだから 届かぬ願い
突然のさよなら、必然

子供の頃も かさぶたを 我慢できず
途中で剥がしては 怒られてた 変わらない

あれから 幾つかの 恋をした ふりをした僕に
受話器越し あなたは
穏やかにうなずいた そうじゃない

逢いたい気持ちとは 裏腹に 臆病な夜を 重ねて
時間だけが ただ過ぎていくよ 残されたまま
あの日から ひとつも 進めない

たまにくれるね 優しさの 赤い絵文字 嬉しくない
それより ずっと欲しいのは 本当の さよならさ
すごく 怖いけど 歩きだすよ

桜の舞う 季節まで待って せめて 僕から別れを
忙しいあなたのことだから 届かぬ願い
突然のさよなら、必然

さよなら ありがとう


Romaji

Ichiou no "Mata ne..."   se wo muketa   anata no kami
harukaze wo matotte usurete yuku nokoriga

ashita kara itami wa hi wo ou goto mashite yuku deshou
ashita kara anata wa tantan to wasurete yuku deshou

sakura no mau kisetsu made matte  semete boku kara wakare wo
isogashii anata no koto dakara  todokanu negai
totsuzen no sayonara, hitsuzen

kodomo no koro mo, kasabuta wo gaman dekizu
tochuu de hagashite wa okorareteta kawaranai

are kara ikutsuka no koi wo shita furi wo shita boku ni
juwaki goshi anata wa
odayaka ni unazuita  sou janai

aitai kimochi to wa urahara ni okubyou na yoru wo kasanete
jikan dake ga tada sugite yuku yo nokosareta mama
ano hi kara hitotsu mo susumenai

tama ni kureru ne yasashisa no akai emoji ureshikunai
sore yori zutto hoshii no wa hontou no sayonara sa
sugoku kowai kedo aruki dasu yo

sakura no mau kisetsu made matte  semete boku kara wakare wo
isogashii anata no koto dakara  todokanu negai
totsuzen no sayonara, hitsuzen

sayonara arigatou


Translation

A tentative "see you..." was said as your hair turned on me, disregarding my presence...
While your lingering scent clad onto the spring breeze and continued to weaken...

From tomorrow, the pain will continue to increase as the days go by...
From tomorrow, you will unconcernedly continue to forget about me...

My farewell will at least wait until the season the cherry blossoms dance!
It's because you are always so busy, that my request won't reach...
Which is why an abrupt farewell... is inevitable

Even when I was small, I couldn't stand the scabs I got
I would get angry while peeling it off... I haven't changed

Since then, several girls have acted like they've fallen in love with me.
Across the telephone receiver, you gently nod your head in assent, but I'm sure you're not actually...

My feelings of wanting to meet you is in contrast, causing the timid nights to pile up
Only time is passing us by, as I remain here...
Since then not a single thing has progressed...

The kindness which you occasionally show in your red Emojis don't make me happy
But more than that, the thing that I've always wanted was a true farewell
Even though I'm real scared, I will begin to walk!

My farewell will at least wait until the season the cherry blossoms dance!
It's because you are always so busy, that my request won't reach...
Which is why an abrupt farewell... is inevitable

Farewell... and thank you...

credits to wingom.livejournal.com

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Mind not sync with eyes

people always say I'm innocent, and I never claim that true. when people finally realize, start to know the real me all they can do is mocking me. Dude, I already said right, I'm not innocent, I can be so unbelievable and you all just underestimate me. well, I always be a quiet person. But that doesn't mean I know nothing